Some bullshit I need to get off of my chest without causing myself uneeded drama. Its cool that you’ve found this new found faith in God and yes I go to church for you so I can see a smile on your face. But the abusrdity of your blind faith and preacher really piss me off. Your “give it to God ” is total crap you need to take charge and ownership for your mistakes and what you can fix. This God will fix it if its to be is a cop out, it hinders you and you don’t even see it I think that’s the most frustrating part. But I try not to judge and I fully support you but when you tell me I’m battetling the devil and that I need to forgive my Dad and thank God is when I get fucking angry. I should thank God for years of mental and phsyical abuse..? I should thank this would be great being for all the scars the bruises and cracks within my family that wont ever be mended? No. I shouldn’t and I wont. Yes I’m a better person probably stronger than most and have a different perspective on some shit but no religion had no place in that or was there. My beatings and fights saved my sister and mom from quite a few throwdowns and mental beatdowns. I took what I could so they didn’t have to suffer, so my sister could have a decent relationship with my pos father. I didn’t have faith guiding me or giving me strength. I had my will and determention and thats it. So. Cut. The. Fucking. Religion. Talk. With. Me. Oh and this whole “I still love my ex shit ” cut it out. Cool I do too from way back. But guess what bro you kinda fucked up that the same way I did. She moved on and you dragging your feet isn’t going to make it any easier. Fucking just let her know and thank her for the time you two had. Instead of being a bitter twat. An you never know weirder shit has happened you could end up back with her. But you need a lot of growing to do like I did before that can happen. Alright I’m good now.